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Colorado may need a different name; I am just not sure what yet. I know! Lucas is Colorado’s new name. I am sorry if this gets confusing. Please try and keep up.

Oh Lucas! Where to start? I am going to take this one nice and slow, after all he is the most important part of my story.

How me and Lucas met.

Side note: New character! Nicole is her name and she has been my friend since… forever (7^th grade).

Warning: I am usually cold hearted (see other post about, anyone else) but when it comes to Lucas I am a sappy lovesick fourteen-year-old girl.

Nicole and I were on our way to a New Year’s Eve party. We were about 16 and my parents were out of town, we knew it would be a night to remember. Unfortunately a short time before I had broken up with my boyfriend and I was still a bit upset of the mistake I thought I had made. By the time we arrived I had decide I was going to meet everyone at this party- Well at least all the guys at this party! (One thing I haven’t mentioned yet, I am from a pretty small: town, area, county.)  Before we went into the shed where the DJ and everyone was Nicole and I mixed our drinks in the back of her V-car (car that looks like a van, trust me it’s not pretty). As we were walking in I kept telling myself to be outgoing and meet as many people (guys) as I could. So when I grabbed for the door to the party I was excited when it opened and revealed a very gorgeous, tall, dark and handsome man. I immediately held out my hand and said “Hi! My name is Scarlett. What’s yours?” He smiled and said his name is Lucas, and that he had heard of me. I had no idea how or what he had heard but I didn’t care.

At the time I didn’t know I would remember it forever. I didn’t know then that I would fall in love with Lucas within the next year. Some people don’t believe in love at first sight, maybe that’s because at first sight we are so distracted by everything else, our heart my feel that love in the moment but it doesn’t register to us until the moment has passed. Looking back it was love at first sight, and every day since.

Now I am going to talk about Ex and Bass. I will start by saying they are best buds from when they were in high school. I then went to the same college as Bass. Ex planned a party one weekend and we all went up there, more specifically Ex, Bass, Frand, Bass’ brother: Guy (I almost want to name him Gay, because he is and that wouldn’t offend him but I don’t want to offend anyone) and me. Long story short: Ex and I became very acquainted and a week later started dated. Bass was very upset with this and tried to say it was because Ex and his ex-girlfriend were going to get back together. What Ex and I both knew was that Bass liked me. This was weird for a while but soon was not an issue. Ex and I dated for the next 2 ½ years which brings us to our break up. This may be its own story completely, I will say our break up was not light hearted, and even though it I didn’t see it at the time it was mutual. It was almost a clean cut. Unfortunately we still belong to the same circle of friends, so our paths will cross. The good thing is I don’t think it will be so bad.

Currently my only worry is Bass. To be perfectly blunt there is a reason I dated Ex and not him. I am not sure what he is thinking, but there are subtle hints that make me believe he thinks there is a chance. I know I sound harsh, but I don’t have feeling for him. You can’t make someone love you.  

Let’s start with the least important, at the time, which would be Newbie. I will tell you what I know, and it’s not much. My friend… we will call her Poof is trying to set me up with this guy. I was supposed to hang out with him last weekend but the plans fell through. Anyway the only thing Poof has told me is Newbie is “tall dark and handsome,” he works out daily (which I’m really not into REALLY buff guys) and he is a country boy (ok- as long as it’s not over done). Oh! And he is recently divorced and has a 5 year-old son, but he is a really nice guy. Yes… so, I’m thinking this is a no go. I am looking for fun, not to settle down with someone who has all of that going on. I am not saying I could get involved with someone that has a kid or has been divorce (in this case both) I am just saying that’s not for me right now. Honestly I would probably break his heart unless he was only looking to have fun. On the potential scale I would say a 2/10 chance of anything happening.

Next up is Frand! This is the one that is part of the friend family but I think he is into me, which is not completely a bad thing. Let’s play Best Case Scenario!!!

So BCS: Frand and I this summer decide to have an understood fling and keep it a secret.

Why this would be a good idea:

1. He is going away for school in the fall, so he’s not looking for anything serious. I’m not looking for anything serious.

2. I could have a meaningless sexual relationship without having to worry about someone getting hurt.

3. How much fun it would be to keep it a secret, from our friends… too much fun.

Why this is a bad idea:

1. There is a chance one of us could start having feelings for the other.

2. Is it really possible to keep a secret, I really don’t know but I could image what would happen if the secret got out.

We will just have to see what happens. On the potential scale I would give this a 7/10 chance of a fling happening.

Well lets start with my ex, we can just call him Ex for now. He broke it off with me after 2 1/2 years. He was living with me and decided after I left for work to pack all his shit up and just like that be out.

Well ok…. not just like that. We had some really big issues and we both saw the break up coming, so don’t hate him just yet. The way it all went down was not right at all. Both parties are to blame for the break up, and this party is already over it.

This brings me to the next guy in my life, I’ll give him a name….. Colorado, for now. We will get to the back story on this one sometime, I will say we have known each other for 6 years and were somewhat involved for 3 years. Anyway Colorado could have been a huge problem between me and Ex. No, he was a huge problem, no doubt. To say Colorado was the one that got away would be an understatement and also a lie because now he’s back! This simple fact alone makes me weak at the knees, and he has been back for a while now. (When I say “back” I mean back in town, he moved away… and now he is back, do you follow?) So what do I do, well I jump right back on that horse…. figuratively speaking. Then I mess it all up… and more.

Next….

Oh this is where even I am like…. What the FUCK. We will call this one Frand… or maybe, I don’t know, I’ll stick with that for now. Well Frand here is a friend of mine and actually a friend of Ex and a friend of the next guy I will talk about. So pretty much we are all one big happy friendly family, except Colorado that’s a different friend family. (Are you confused yet??) SO. Frand and I have been friends for about… 4 or 5 years. I dated Ex which like I said same friend family and I also had a “fling” thing… with his other friend….. (I am not a whore, really it is not as bad as it sounds) we will call him… Ron… THESE NAMES SUCK! Anyway Frand and I are in the beginning stages of a possible fling… a summer fling. I will leave it at that. For now.

3 down 2 to go…..

Bass like a bass guitar. Bass is in the friend family but is long time friend to Ex, and is part of the reason we dated. Unfortunately before me and Ex started dating Bass had a thing for me. Now that me and Ex are broken up Bass and I have been hanging out, mostly in the friend family or with Frand. I just don’t know what he is thinking… I don’t want him to get the wrong idea.

Last but not least (actually yeah: least)

The New guy! Newbie for short. I haven’t even met him but boy do I feel sorry for him. My girlfriends think it is a good idea to set me up with Newbie. I disagree completely. I will not turn down a good time though.

Disclaimer: I am NOT a writer. I am not even that literate. I know this may be hard to read but I will not take blame for any sort of medical illness you get from my writing.

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